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[leighblack]

Sorry guys, no photos tonight. I'm in a really shitty mood and perhaps on the brink of making a life changing decision. Well, maybe not life changing. Work does not define me, right?? I'm more than a job. It's just...

Gee, can you tell I'm confused?? I don't know what to do now.

duckduck, don't be surprised if you don't see me on Friday. In fact, I may not ever go back. That's why I perhaps did not seem like myself tonight. It had nothing to do with you. We can certanily still go out on Friday night though. I'll, ummm, have to get back to you about it. I obviously have some thinking to do. It took every fiber of my being to not walk out tonight. But why should I stay somewhere that makes me feel like that?

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[duckduck.livejournal.com]

Holy fuck! Did he say that to your *face?* I'm surprised you didn't punch him, really. Is there someone else you can talk to? I know there are others who would understand, managerial sorts, I'm thinking. Right? Although I don't know if they could *do* anything. Therein lies the problem, I'm thinking.

Do what you will. If you want to quit, then quit. Really. I won't tell you what to do, but I will tell you to do what you feel is right for you.

Let me know what your plans are.

[leighblack.livejournal.com]

Not only was it said to my face, but it's on my review. Written down & kept for posterity. And it really bugs me that Paul has signed off on it, so he must have read it over. So now his impression of me is that I don't meet the expectations of being a team player. It's all fucking bullshit! Why yes, that's why I take so much time making sure everything is neat and orderly so the booksellers can find things. And pitch in with things that need to be done.

I wanted to talk to Vicki, but I was too worked up to be able to do so in a constructive manner. I mentioned something to her finally at the end of the night, and I think she was really pissed. I just left early and pretty much cried the entire way home.

The fucking kicker is that I got marked down from something our very favorite department manager said to Jason. We already lost one good employee because of her. And to think I was trying to help her calm down and work with her figuring out the bargain/calendar stuff just a couple weeks ago. Argh!

Sorry, I'm still really bitter and hoping that the venting will help it dissipate some. I don't want to just quit because I'm so pissed off, when that may not be the right choice.

[duckduck.livejournal.com]

I understand, I think, but this part:

The fucking kicker is that I got marked down from something our very favorite department manager said to Jason. We already lost one good employee because of her. And to think I was trying to help her calm down and work with her figuring out the bargain/calendar stuff just a couple weeks ago. Argh!

confuses me. I mean, I think you're talking Christy? Right? But who quit because of her? Am I following you correctly? I am so confused here.

[leighblack.livejournal.com]

Yes, Christy. Lynda quit because Christy was such a bitch to her. Okay, she was just a PT-er, but she was still "with-it" and knew what was going on. It was a shame to lose her.

Don't be confused. I'm confused enough for several people.

[duckduck.livejournal.com]

Dude, I had no idea that was why Lynda quit. I mean, I knew she was pissed, but I had no idea why. I guess I thought, perhaps, it had been Kelly (?). Lynda really did know a lot. She was one of my favorite pt'ers to work with because she was smart and worked hard, but wasn't an asskisser. A rare find, indeed.

[leighblack.livejournal.com]

Yup, yup. That was the reason. The details are a bit fuzzy, but I believe Christy pulled her into the office and essentially told her that she was lazy and not getting enough work done.