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leighblackI was going to write this huge rant, but I decided that I just didn't have the energy to do it. I hate being all aggravated & upset. It's just not how I want to live my life. People who cause me to feel that way are just not people I want to hang around.
I have this friend who is supposed to be one of my best friends. Yet, Jess constantly lets me down. At this point, I no longer know why I expect her to show up at things we plan. I always get so surprised when she actually does show. We were supposed to go to a local wrestling show on Fri. That didn't happen. Okay, it was a money issue, so that's fine. We were supposed to make cookies for our fundraiser garage/bake sale this week on Sun morning. Since we're in charge of the whole thing and I haven't seen her in over two weeks, I wanted to get together so we could discuss details of what we were planning. But of course, she called to say that she wasn't going to come over. Then she emailed me today to offer to do a couple things, and got upset when I said she didn't need to bother since I did it without her. I'm supposed to be going to New York with her in August and I'm beginning to freak out that something is going to go wrong. I WILL NOT miss out on my Broadway trip!!
We're the co-captains of our Race for the Cure team. This year, Jess wanted to do raise extra money, besides just the entrance fees. She's been talking about this since last year's race. It seemed very important to her. Yet, she went off on a cruise for a week and has now broken our plans to get together twice. I have been left in charge of everything! Now, I know that raising money is a good thing, so I'm not going to bitch about that. But I really don't have the free time to take care of all this. I thought I would have some help! I'm really not all that into it anyways. I just do it since it's something important to my friends. Instead, I am the one taking care of all the emails, running and hosting the two fundraisers, getting all the things and people organized, making sure all the deadlines are met and everything is running smoothly. But hey, she's going to make a sign for the garage sale, so I guess that evens it out. *sarcasm*
The thing is, I know she's unhappy a lot of the time. I don't think she'll ever admit to herself that much of it is caused by her boyfriend, but I really think that he's the main source of it. He's not abusive or anything, but a large drain on her emotionally and financially. I know I'm not the only one who thinks this. However, if she decides that she wants to spend her life with him, I accept that and I'll support her. But after she met him, things started to change with her. She started drifting away from all of her friends. Now, I realize that things are going to be different once there's a b/f around. I'm not stupid. But if you're going to break most of the plans that you make, why make them at all? She's heard all of this from me before. I've told her, if she doesn't want to hang out with us, then just let us know. She always tells us that no, it's important to her to have close friends. She sees her mom and how lonely she is now that her kids are gone and she didn't keep in touch with any of her girlfriends once she started a family. Jess doesn't want to end up like that, so she says. Yet, it continually happens. I just don't know what to do anymore. I only have so much patience. If you break every date that we set, I just tells me that you don't want to see me. So why should I make an effort?
I'm going to read this after I post it and it's not going to make any sense at all. That's the story of my life. Anyhow, if you read all this, thanks for your time.
Besides all that, the weekend went pretty well. Since I was trying to get a million things done while at my parent's house, I didn't get to spend much time snuggling with my doggies. I'll be watching them again next weekend though, and we should have plenty of cuddle time. It's just so cute to see Earl follow me around the house and try to coerce me into sitting in the family room so he can sit in the chair with me. :) I did manage to accomplish everything I needed to get done, which is a huge relief. I was going to freak out if I got behind on stuff.
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annfromdetroit's Spike icons. Dearie, I did start on them, but I got home too late last night to really get anything done. But I now have plenty of videos and photos to work with, so I'll get something fantastic done for you as soon as I get a chance. Anything to help cheer you up!
Sat night was our "annual" Knox reunion. Really, it's just a bunch of people who used to work together meeting up at a bar. I only go to see Big Bob and he only goes to see me. I rocked the major cleavage for Bob and he thanked me for it, as always. :) The whole thing didn't go too badly this year. There were some people there I hadn't seen in over 5 years, so that was cool. And sad, as Mickey was diagnosed with lymphoma in Feb. She looked good though and seems to be in good spirits. It's amazing that we all keep in contact I guess, but something about working at that store at that time was wonderful. We used to have the best times!
Oh, and 11 days 'til Van Helsing!!!!!!
I have this friend who is supposed to be one of my best friends. Yet, Jess constantly lets me down. At this point, I no longer know why I expect her to show up at things we plan. I always get so surprised when she actually does show. We were supposed to go to a local wrestling show on Fri. That didn't happen. Okay, it was a money issue, so that's fine. We were supposed to make cookies for our fundraiser garage/bake sale this week on Sun morning. Since we're in charge of the whole thing and I haven't seen her in over two weeks, I wanted to get together so we could discuss details of what we were planning. But of course, she called to say that she wasn't going to come over. Then she emailed me today to offer to do a couple things, and got upset when I said she didn't need to bother since I did it without her. I'm supposed to be going to New York with her in August and I'm beginning to freak out that something is going to go wrong. I WILL NOT miss out on my Broadway trip!!
We're the co-captains of our Race for the Cure team. This year, Jess wanted to do raise extra money, besides just the entrance fees. She's been talking about this since last year's race. It seemed very important to her. Yet, she went off on a cruise for a week and has now broken our plans to get together twice. I have been left in charge of everything! Now, I know that raising money is a good thing, so I'm not going to bitch about that. But I really don't have the free time to take care of all this. I thought I would have some help! I'm really not all that into it anyways. I just do it since it's something important to my friends. Instead, I am the one taking care of all the emails, running and hosting the two fundraisers, getting all the things and people organized, making sure all the deadlines are met and everything is running smoothly. But hey, she's going to make a sign for the garage sale, so I guess that evens it out. *sarcasm*
The thing is, I know she's unhappy a lot of the time. I don't think she'll ever admit to herself that much of it is caused by her boyfriend, but I really think that he's the main source of it. He's not abusive or anything, but a large drain on her emotionally and financially. I know I'm not the only one who thinks this. However, if she decides that she wants to spend her life with him, I accept that and I'll support her. But after she met him, things started to change with her. She started drifting away from all of her friends. Now, I realize that things are going to be different once there's a b/f around. I'm not stupid. But if you're going to break most of the plans that you make, why make them at all? She's heard all of this from me before. I've told her, if she doesn't want to hang out with us, then just let us know. She always tells us that no, it's important to her to have close friends. She sees her mom and how lonely she is now that her kids are gone and she didn't keep in touch with any of her girlfriends once she started a family. Jess doesn't want to end up like that, so she says. Yet, it continually happens. I just don't know what to do anymore. I only have so much patience. If you break every date that we set, I just tells me that you don't want to see me. So why should I make an effort?
I'm going to read this after I post it and it's not going to make any sense at all. That's the story of my life. Anyhow, if you read all this, thanks for your time.
Besides all that, the weekend went pretty well. Since I was trying to get a million things done while at my parent's house, I didn't get to spend much time snuggling with my doggies. I'll be watching them again next weekend though, and we should have plenty of cuddle time. It's just so cute to see Earl follow me around the house and try to coerce me into sitting in the family room so he can sit in the chair with me. :) I did manage to accomplish everything I needed to get done, which is a huge relief. I was going to freak out if I got behind on stuff.
Oh, the only thing I didn't get done is
annfromdetroit's Spike icons. Dearie, I did start on them, but I got home too late last night to really get anything done. But I now have plenty of videos and photos to work with, so I'll get something fantastic done for you as soon as I get a chance. Anything to help cheer you up!Sat night was our "annual" Knox reunion. Really, it's just a bunch of people who used to work together meeting up at a bar. I only go to see Big Bob and he only goes to see me. I rocked the major cleavage for Bob and he thanked me for it, as always. :) The whole thing didn't go too badly this year. There were some people there I hadn't seen in over 5 years, so that was cool. And sad, as Mickey was diagnosed with lymphoma in Feb. She looked good though and seems to be in good spirits. It's amazing that we all keep in contact I guess, but something about working at that store at that time was wonderful. We used to have the best times!
Oh, and 11 days 'til Van Helsing!!!!!!
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Date: 2004-04-26 09:04 pm (UTC)I'm sure you'll hear all about what a bitch I am on Thursday.
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Date: 2004-04-27 06:35 am (UTC)I know that things will be ok in time but until then...
well, I'm here.
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Date: 2004-04-27 06:50 am (UTC)